#solar vent

[queersolarfandompage]

⚠️Tw Vent, kinda⚠️

For the last couple of years I have had a bad relationship with food. It wasn’t necessarily the food that was the problem, rather it was the cost of it. After graduating high school my parents kicked me out over a disagreement. I started living with my best friend at the time, and their parents welcomed me into their home. However my friends parents had no responsibility to take care of me, so I never felt comfortable eating their food or drinking their beverages. I felt like I needed to prove my worth to even stay in their home. I cleaned up after my friend and helped with babysitting their nephew whenever I was asked. Things ended poorly with my friend and I ended up moving in with my older brother. But I kept that same mindset. This is my brother, he has no reason to take care of me, no responsibility for me, but my brother was insistent on eating dinner together so I couldn’t refuse the meal. But I didn’t often snack on their food or eat meals besides the ones we’d eat together. Neither my friends parents or my brother told me to be self sufficient, I’m sure they would have both been alright if I relied on them, but I became so focused on the idea that they had no reason to take care of me, that I shouldn’t become another burden on them. Eventually I left my brother’s and moved back into my parents. A year and a half had passed, and by this point the relationship I developed with food had stuck. My parents let me know that if I needed anything to let them know, and for a few weeks I did, but then a switch flipped in my head and I began buying my own groceries. I had the money to buy food, even if it was just ramen and sandwich stuff. Then I got Covid, and I couldn’t stomach the idea of eating. I felt nauseous thinking about food, and nothing ever sounded appetizing. If I forced myself to eat my stomach would be in pain for a while after until the food settled. I quit my job, due to the stress of the job, school, and the lack of energy I had due to my illness. I’ve survived the last month on the remains of my money, but it’s slowly dwindling out and as a result I’m more finicky when making purchases. I’ve been living off of cup of noddles and peanut butter because my stomach could tolerate those things but now I can’t even stomach the thought of eating them. I realize if I talk to my family about relying on them when it comes to food that they would most likely agree to help me but I also can’t imagine what I’d even ask them for. My parents eat a specific diet, and they’d have to go out of their way to pick up food that isn’t part of their diet. My food would be cheaper than there’s, but I also don’t even know what foods I would eat. Anyways instead of solving this problem I will just continue suffering until I get a new job or die of starvation. /nsrs

In other news I’ve got an interview tomorrow.

[nightixx]

imagine being a daycare attendant who needs professional help

That would be crazy if it existed

[socksandbuttons]

i misread this for bloodmoon and just dfbjkasas hunted down for burrito time buddy

[ginahrom]

moho braccatus sounds

[puppyeared]

i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

[that-starry-freak]

"Wow, I finally finished the art I needed to do! Now I can finally draw but I want to!"

*hormones kick in and I spend hours reading solarmoon fics and crying* "... oh"

Anyway small solarmoon comic. Can be read as romantic or platonic but is meant to be queer platonic! In my au they kind of just experiment together. (In more than one way lmao, nerds. Yall arnt just kissing yall are SCIENCING)

Nexus: *working*

Nexus: slot your pennies into the vending machine of love-

Nexus: and taste that fizzy minx you've been dreaming of~

Solar: cute~

Nexus: *pauses what he's doing, stunned and flustered*

Solar: absolutely adorable

Nexus: shut up-

Solar: no <3

[ikamigami]

How some people can be so dense?! Aaacjsbsbjsnsbsb

Sun isn't doing fine!

"All the signs that Sun will die is a red herring cause Solar will die.."

Maybe Solar will die? Idk..

But Sun is suicidal! Pls for the love of all that exist!

Sun will most definitely "die" via suicide...

Vsjnsjsksk

I just.. I can't...

No one cares about Sun.. definitely not on Discord.. that's one thing I'm sure of.....

My head hurts me and seeing these stupid takes about Sun.. that he's fine and that he wants to kill Eclipse are making it worse...

Just bsnskdnndjd

[solarcandydrops]

I'm so fucking hungry lol. All I have is a little thing of chocolate chips and a small bag of Graham crackers.

[queersolarfandompage]

So I start my new job today and I already am pulling back from it. First off I have to dress up everyday, gotta have good hygiene, gotta control my hair. Bestie I’m depressed and struggle to get out of bed everyday. How do you expect me to pull all my shit together at once for a job? I’ll also be dealing with people all day. Why the fuck did we apply for a customer service position. I hate people. And now I have to sit and listen to them all day? Nah. But I feel like I’m stuck with the job. Having a job I dislike is better then not having a job at all or a job that stresses me out to the point of fucking up my mental health. We’ll see how today goes

[tsamsventingsafe]

Heya there SaMs fandom, I’m making this blog as the original SaMs venting blog has decided to support a known pedophile and isn’t a safe space to vent anymore, especially for kids.

Yes, gore anon vents are allowed, thought do be warned I might not pick up on any malicious vents if they are fandom based ones, so please keep that in mind incase I reply to an ask without knowing it was actually bad.

[turkitty5]

just like in los campesinos!!

[ginahrom]

Don't be sad, or I'll cry

Io said and began to cry

[the-ultimate-tsbs-kin]

So like yall realise that sams is fully making me watch the love of my life replace me right-

[guardrock]

Ugh torn between not really buying that Adam is gone gone and wondering if I'm just coping and feeling pessimistic about it. Don't really want to get my expectations up now with what Viv said :/

[that-starry-freak]

Sorry chat I dont know what the fuck was going on with me earlier. My anxeity was going haywire-

Anyway, better now. Take my children

I desperately need them to be a happy little family I swear-

[ikamigami]

TW: a little vent..

I'm so tired of sams fandom sometimes..

They can only see issues in characters like Eclipse or Solar..

But when someone hides their issues like Sun.. I mean in the way he hides it - that he seems to be fine.. then they don't see it..